On Paper

by Elizabeth Loudon

On paper I come across better.
I know from experience
what not to say.

I drag coherence 
out of the spiky teeth of the afternoon,
I salvage the couple on the bench 

who gave me a dirty look, 
the hard-running dogs and children
oblivious to the pitch and roll of tidal erasure.

On paper I’m sentimental as a ripe peach,
gorgeous in a red silk skirt, 
my foot in the door of a party 

so it won’t slam shut on the music. 
I dance like a flamingo ready to mate,
stay up late and never skip the beat.

On paper I can defend my catalogue 
of sins. They’re arranged 
by colour, and the file includes

an original papal indulgence. It’s easy
to miss, that one – it looks like
a scribbled poem from a morning hour 

that was clear before the day lost 
its well-made mind. It doesn’t look like
forgiveness. It says nothing of heaven.


On Paper can be found at Blue Mountain Review, September 2022, page 159: https://issuu.com/collectivemedia/docs/bluemountainreviewseptember2022

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